Rant mode on

You know how parents ask you ‘Hey, you remember that time when…’ And reminds you of one of your worse memories?
Oh, I can list them out like I’m counting treasures.
Like that time in Grade 1 where a Grade 4 blackmailed me and told the school bus nanny that I spat in her face. I went to Chinese tuition bawling.
Like that time in Grade 2 where I was led aside during assembly and was asked whether I threw a broom downstairs, which I didn’t.
Like that time in Grade 4 where I swore in class.
Like those times during my earlier years I’d throw small tantrums in class and bury my head in my jacket and cry.
Like those times throughout primary school where I just throw my head at the wall or hit it with a book or whatever when I didn’t do well enough at something.
Like that time in Grade 5 where I’d freaked out in class because my mom forgot to take out her mobile phone from my school bag and it rang in class.
Really, I don’t need reminding.

Forgive me if I keep telling you that I hope that we could be friends
I really want to call you my friend but I’m scared that if I do I’ll just screw the friendship up just like I did a year ago
It’s still a sore memory and even typing or thinking about it gets me really down so
But feel free to ask me about it, I’ve never actually told anyone.

Babble babble time

So I’ve been thinking how differently I act towards different people.
There’s the lazy loner freak for the classmates, the chirrupy chatterbox towards the teachers, the moody broody thing in the family who also happens to struggle with studies, the little artist up here and Irene over at my RP blog.
I’ve only added the last two in the list two months ago, and it feels exhausting, somehow.
I mean, I’ve been in a serious lack of motivation to actually work at school, and I’m sabotaging my studies.
I kinda want to break one of these roles, probably the one with the classmates, but I don’t feel like I can. It just feels weird.

jenerallygaming:

spiderlilyobsessions:

spiderlilyobsessions:

I really need to update my RP blog’s icon.
The more I look at it the more it sucks
I feel like there’s something wrong with my RP blog and I can’t get what exactly it is.

And I really want to get feedback on my RP blog so far but I don’t because I’m kinda worried that…

If people don’t like your blog, you don’t have to notice them and vice versa, Irene is great.

But I don’t really know???
I’m on mobile Tumblr most of the time and I kind of keep overlooking other RP blogs’ rules and after I send asks I immediately start worrying over it and thinking whether they accept a genderbent version of an overused character??? And I’m scared that the people I sent the ask to is going to be embarassed???? I know they can send private replies but still